Kamis, 08 November 2012

I watched it begin again...

"Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do"

"Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you"
"You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do"

"And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause he never did"

"Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end"

"On a Wednesday in a cafe, I watched it begin again"

"What's past is past"

Nope, this is not the whole lyrics. This is just my favorite parts of this tune. I've been listening to this song for the past two weeks over and over again. I am in love with this song. It's like... this guy Taylor met was very nice and polite and... loves her so much. They're both feel comfortable with each other.


Suddenly you popped out on my mind. You said that word to me every time i asked 'what makes you fall in love?' or 'how do you know when you're in love?'. You'd say 'if she could make me comfortable around her.' 
Yes, i do remember.

Unfortunately, i'm not the one for you. I'm not made to be yours. Not yet, maybe. Well, i don't know. Do i ever crossed your mind? Or the reasons why i keep holding onto this 'uncertainty' about us? Do you even wanna know WHY? Why do i keep crying for you at nights? Why do i keep thinking about you when you don't even care about me? Why do i fall for your sweet-nothings? No. You don't wanna know, because you don't care. :-)

Remember when we always talk late at night? Remember all those words you said to me? That night when i threw a birthday party for my 16th birthday at my house.... You came. I wore a black dress and one pair of converse. You almost hugged me. When you arrived home, you text me, you told me that i was beautiful. That i was pretty with that dress and you loved it. And then, you asked me out. Just the two of us. You and me. I am freaking out... Overjoyed.

We went out. To a mall. We were having so much fun, we ate dinner together. Well, i ate dinner. Pasta and Lemon Tea. You just ordered a glass of Ice Coffee. But, you didn't like the coffee because it was too bitter for you even though it's perfect for me.

We went home. You drove me, but we didn't directly went home. We went somewhere else. You took me going around the city. I've never saw something so beautiful with all the lights and stuffs. I smiled. You smiled. We were both happy. Once.

That was the last time of everything. Now, i feel like that night was a beautiful goodbye. Yea, beautiful and sweet. But now, it's bitter.

I just wanna say thank you for the last one year. I watched you transformed to a better guy. From a player, to a perfect lover. I hope if you're with someone else right now, you could love her right and treat her like a princess. Ah, 'princess'. I was once called a 'princess' by you. And.... I hope that she could love you more than i do. She could love you endlessly and... honestly. A true feeling from her heart, not just because you're cute and you've got the most perfect smile i've ever seen.

:-) ciao!